like i dunno. i believe i already posted this but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree you'll think its evolutionarily useless. if you judge me by my ability to not snap on people who are calling me confscum or saying that i'm scum and they refuse to reevaluate a la RCE you're either going to scumread me or think i'm bad. sucking at dealing with scumreads and having a massive scum ceiling is a pretty debilitating ceiling but my town winrate gets by because by and large people just recognize it's +equity to let me do my thing on D1 and deal with me later and this game was like, the antithesis of that and my play suffered.
but i guess one thing that i'm kinda stuck on is that like in vaccuum if you're town at the start of teh game you're self-resolving given like, you're you
but if you're town here i'm not sure that you are
and that's a little scary for me but i'm not sure that pushing you for a lynch is the best way to resolve you rn
but if i'm being honest with myself there is a *very* large chance i get eaten up with paranoia if you're around in lylo if we're both there, no matter how i read you the day before, no matter what my thoughts were the day before
like i just kinda know myself that this is where my mind is going to go even if i don't want it to
at the risk of being called pockety, if you work with me we just won't make it to lylo. there's a reason i've never made it to lylo as town from D1 besides Baton Pass (which, several mitigating factors)
not saying that to like brag or dick measuring contest, we just really can do this
if nsg ever shows up again and it's still in question maybe she can help show that we're town, idk.
2019 stats: Town WR 76.7%, overall WR 81.667%, 1 scum defeat involving a major mod error in lylo vs 8 scum wins.