(Pretend I quoted the other questions too)
It's very easy to miss
1103 since it seems irrelevant to this at first, but I explain a bit there along with
1128
Starting with my read on bork, this was evolving realtime here. My instinct was that he had no reason to try and 1v1 outright like that...but it's not quite so cut and dry. Positioning for a 1v1 with a wallpost doesn't mean you're actually seeking one, he could have equally been looking for a place to park or just muddy the game. I already didn't really like you but felt you were immediately moving to take advantage of a town 1v1 to demoralize it. Both scum was also possible, but me being right on two people voting me is not something I would bet on in any world. At this point, in conjunction with realizing I was thinking incorrectly about bork's scum motivation, I decided I needed to slow down drastically and revisit the posting only when I was confident I could avoid getting emotional or stressed over it.
Some of this stress is from the stakes, but other forms are just from my nature: the prospect of anyone not understanding what I'm saying is an absolutely crushing thing for me, and my first instinct is to do whatever I can to fix it. With bork, if he's scum there's no point in really trying, and if he's town it required a lot more than my erratic attempts.
It is very, very important that I get my reads on both of you correctly. Successfully flipping the elimination to one of you only to have them flip town is likely to lose the game outright, even if the other were scum. I'm rereading the pages today for the first time since they happened and will try to find a vote, but I am very determined to play it slow.