you won't like this, but it worked on me because i hyped myself up thinking you were scum, you explained yourself well, and then osuka came along with a counter-explanation that looked at a glance like it made sense. and looking like it made sense was enough, because i was emotionally invested in you being scum, so i jumped at the chance to start pushing you again. i like to think i have good deductive reasoning skills, but i am incredibly susceptible to my own emotions, and it's something i'm working on. i'll quote myself from last game:
this is what i failed to do this time around. i get excited and commit too hard to things that don't fully add up, see what i want to see in other people's posts. time pressure compounded this excitement, and further fed my desire to have found scum to eliminate. the problem is that this type of behaviour, especially posts like
1018 which was a piss poor argument, is essentially indistinguishable from scum desperation. make no mistake -- this is
bad
, and i won't be surprised if it gets me eliminated here. it's the deadliest fault in my play and something i have to work on as a person, not just as a mafia player.
if i'm being honest i had already started to lose confidence before i even stopped posting, but i pushed it down because it was already too late to back down from believing osuka's
992. i don't really expect you to believe that this isn't just AtE (i'm gonna link
680 so you don't think i'm trying to exploit the weakness you mentioned in that post), but this is the full, real explanation.