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Cephrir (and DV as well), regardless of your affiliation, I am sorry about my posting D4 where I pushed for your lynch . I think I was wrong (I feel you are much more likely town than scum at this point though). I guess most of me personally attacking you came after you said I was harassing/bullying you, which I wasn't and that only triggered my desire to see you as scum and I was hoping, maybe, maybe that you were scum and the whole thing was orchestrated just so that you could get out of being lynched and discredit me. At this point, I am pretty sure, that town or scum, you are not faking it so there is no getting around it or hoping that you are scum pretending to be annoyed at me. I probably shouldn't have pushed as hard as I did (especially on town which I am leaning towards you being right now). I think mostly Tammy's posts made me realize that I was probably in the wrong with you since I know she's not out to get me. I made the same mistake with Muffin and Nat in that I didn't want to believe that all of their insults came from town so I just hoped that they were scum. What I missed was that they were good enough scum players that they didn't need to resort to insults to dodge a lynch and were genuinely frustrated. I am not making that same mistake again. I guess my irritation with your posting started mostly after your very unnecessary comments D3 after Tammy and I had an argument and figured out we were both town at the end of it and I felt you and DV continuing to poke at it long after it was over was irritating. It was something that was resolved a while before either of you logged on and obviously wasn't something I want to continue discussing nor did I want your opinion about it. It didn't involve you and it is not something you are going to develop any sort of read out of. I'll assume you had the best of intentions when you quoted posts saying "I still think you are town but etc" as if it would benefit the town but I certainly don't see it that way. It is not an argument that you or DV needed to get involved in and it isn't helping at all nor is DV making a quote-stripe asking for elaboration. In general, getting in the middle of a conflict to take a side is rarely helpful and I never at any point was thankful that you or DV stepped in and never thought that either of you trying to make sense of it was the least bit beneficial and it would have been better if you had not commented at all. If you are town, I feel it is best to move on.

AP, I shouldn't have said that your posts are bad because they are not. I just didn't like them because most of them involved suspecting me. I don't know if you are town or scum, but if you are town, I shouldn't have posted what I did. I can maybe see you as town and I guess JSU clearing you counts for something. If you are a scum godfather, meh, I don't care as much if we at least make some strides in lynching two of the scum which is better than what I thought was possible.

Tammy, I know you are really mad at me and very disappointed and I understand why. The shit state of the game isn't AP's fault, or FoxHound's, or Mastin's, or Rancid's. It is mine. None of them decided to vote you D4 before you headed off to graduation, I did. And I think I was the last person you expected to do that because I've played with you enough and I should know better and I am sorry. I was annoyed at not being able to help, irritated that you were not talking to me and I did stupid things impulsively to shake up the game. I also shouldn't have said that your posts didn't make any sense when DV agreed with them. I was angry at the suspicion towards me, that someone was agreeing with it when I knew myself to be town, and mostly I felt I was inadequate in being town enough and lashed out at anyone pointing it out for me. It is not your fault for pointing it out and I probably acted the way I did because I thought I wasn't meeting your standards for being obvtown. Your suspicion was reasonable and you were right to probe further. I just wished I could make my affiliation obvious like you do but I realize now I'm not as transparent. I also should have listened to your reads (FH in particular). I am convinced now that you were right and if I listened to you like I would in any other game instead of ignoring your townread there, the gamestate wouldn't have been so toxic last phase. But it was your (and Nacho's) posts towards me that made me realize that I was the one at fault here and it was pretty stupid to think that you were seeing what you wanted to see. I guess I wasn't ready then to admit that I was in the wrong yet. At several points in the game, I could tell that you were looking to me (and Nacho) to help you make sense of the game. Possibly even more than you did for other players. You even went so far as to continually say that you enjoyed playing with me even when I played like shit and kept testing your patience and unwittingly doing everything possible to make you change your mind on whether you like playing with me. I am sorry for disappointing you and letting you down as badly.

You asked me before who was frustrating you and who wasn't and I never really responded to it. I was the one frustrating you by freaking out on you D3 for a simple vote, by not working with you when you posted that Gundam Seed link to DV's scumgame and then expecting you to work with me, by pushing the FH lynch out of frustration not taking into account the fact that you said their posts were good, by voting you on D4 when you voted me, by saying that your suspicion of me didn't make sense, and by telling you that you were seeing what you wanted to see when you with all good intentions told me to quit the dumb push on FoxHound. Neither AP nor FoxHound did any of that nor did they attack you for mind-numbingly stupid shit like PV so I think they've been more collaborative to play with. You were right about everything. I don't intend to let any of my frustration seep through into this game anymore (or any other game for that matter although it has been confined to this one). I want you to hold me to this and tell me that if you see me annoy you again, you'll quit interacting with me for the rest of the game because I really love playing with you and I'd hate to do that. Also, do you still feel after Nacho's scumlynch that town doesn't deserve to win?