In post 1273, the worst wrote:Nibbui speak up if I'm being a bit slow here x
during the vig game I remember the main reason you became a "must lynch before lylo" as Fumuki was that he was making some stubborn and seemingly strong, nuanced pushes but after long enough it started to look like he was just pushing the same arguments over again as though it was a clear-set path?
does this make sense and do you agree/disagree? do you get why I'm still pretty uncomfortable with you here?
Yeah, I think that is a portion of it. Maybe there was still some hope for me there if NSG hadn't vigged Shadow on n1, but I def wasn't on good legs
Coincidentally these days I was bored and decided to re:read that game a little to see what was wrong with it so I already have an opinion.
I don't think it was only because I was stubborn, I was as well just...awkward?
My pushes were awkward, my progression was awkward and shy, and all I could do was the repeat the same thing over and over, with a twist here or there sometimes.
Also, holy crap, what was wrong with me with these lamist posts of mine? "maybe we should increase the deadline?", "people need to post", "you guys are ignoring X person that is afk".
I'm quite confident that I would scum read myself right off the bat these days, and you guys did the same, but I abused a little the fact I was new to say "I'm clueless lmao".
(and I was clueless because I didn't notice how lamist it was)
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About you being uncomfortable about me here I get it partially. 65%.
I think I did things here that I wouldn't do as scum and I'm not going into details of that, maybe you or a certain person will notice that.
But yeah, I definitely got throw off by the commotion when I replaced and taking hotpots on people. I feel like I learned that talking too much while catching up is not a good idea, because you'll say a lot of repetitive things that normally are scattered around the ISO of players, however on the catchup it'll all stick together and look needlesly bad. Not only that, I didn't have much time to consider over some matters at that time, therefore my arguments will see even more tedious, repetitive and stubborn because I'm mulling it over and over. I'm kinda paranoid?
Also, I've been a bit awkward in the begin, I feel I could be smoother if I didn't get worked up in the start. Definitely. (I'm slowly recovering my pace I would say!
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There was a lot for me to process, it was like 45 pages in one-go, and only now I'm firm on my reads and solve. I'm even a bit surprised by it, I was very indecise back there. Settling a coalition seemed a nightmare.
I would say that you can sitback and be reserverd about me for now, I'm confident (again) that I can show my towniness for you all from now on
I just hope we get the coalisition right and I don't need to go through the effort though