It is.
Spoiler: Baggage, Optional Reading
I am frustrated with forum mafia right now and I haven't had a good game since way back at Christmas with Badass Female UPick. I love the concept of mafia because I read crappy Victorian mysteries all the time and I like the puzzle solving aspect, but in the last few months the games I've played have just turned out terribly. This was in no small part because I've had a pretty bad streak of drawing scum and I absolutely hate being scum. Posting becomes a chore and I drag my feet. I'm no good at telling people what they want to hear because I'm already socially awkward and it's not one of my strengths. It doesn't help that I have the charisma and likability of a dried up cat turd. The couple times I did draw town, I become an emotional, bitter wreck and by the end of the game I ended up turning into a heinous bitch that was pissed off at everybody.
So coming into this game, I thought I would have the attitude of just trying to enjoy the game and just letting my reads develop at their own pace. These usually don't roll around for a
So, when I saw BNL say "You're not making keeping up and giving this some thought. The old me probably would've ignored BNL and just kept grabassing until she got better reads. But sadly the old me is dead, beaten to a bloody pulp by games of disappointment, mislynches, and angst. Now, getting pushed for bad reasons bugs the shit out of me and drains me. None of this is BNL's fault, but it is how it is.
So coming into this game, I thought I would have the attitude of just trying to enjoy the game and just letting my reads develop at their own pace. These usually don't roll around for a
while
. I am super slow because I always try to consider all the different interpretations of people's posts and their implications. I only end up sharing about 5% of what I think just because most of it ends up being garbage. (As a side note, this is a large part of the reason why you will see me in hydra games a lot more often than solo games. My hydra partner deals with people and I can take my sweet ass time.) So, when I saw BNL say "You're not making
content
on page 2, you're scum!" I was immensely annoyed and just immediately went into bitch mode because I thought "It's not going to be one of those
games again, is it?" I'm not sharing what I'm thinking because I'm not ready yet, but I am
That was largely irrelevant and probably doesn't make any sense, but I had to vent and get that off my chest now.
I have to go deal with people in RL now. This'll be an adventure. I'll be back this evening.